Coping Mechanisms Two

I feel relief after typing out all those last asterisks. Relief and then in some ways, a little guilt. I want people to know the realities of here...but at the same time, I don't want people to focus on only the bad. There is good battling evil, trying to outweigh evil... there is... and some days I really have to remind myself of that. I need to look at a little kid who doesn't seem scared of me. I need to hug Charlie and Karabo, give them kisses on the cheek. I need to look up at the stars and the mountains when the sun has finally set. I need to read letters and emails from people I love and who love me. I need to have a group hug with the ladies at the bead project. I need to sit with MmaDiapo and have her tell me about the farm and how hard she worked that day. I need to have tea and Milo with Rejoice and Maite in the morning. I need to talk to Ledile, someone who totally gets it, and know that we're in this together. I need to send SMSes and buy airtime to talk to my fellow PCV's who also totally get it.